Musings (totally not worth reading at all)

Some words I dreamt of:

What is the meaning of this?

And when I’m 80 years old, will I regret not writing that novel?

Probably not.

Blogs put immense pressure on individuals: to create; to produce, etc.

I thought the institution of “Creative Writing” was going to take away my liberty.

And that’s because it did, to some extent.

People don’t have much liberty today to create what they want. It has to conform to the standards of the society in which it is produced, the art, that is.

Philosophy is hard, rigorous, and sometimes completely erroneous. I am talking of its physical qualities. Or as if it were personified.

I never edit anything.

That is, unless it’s a project for money.

And this project is clearly not for money. It’s a blog.

Blogs should not be for money. Or else you will probably go broke.

And for whoever tells me: “blogs can incentivize your business, etc.”, I will respond later sometime.

I don’t have a business.

Something Jeff Bezos said:

Not a direct quote.

But he said that what made him want to create Amazon was that he thought when he was 80 years old, would he regret not having made the decision to start the business we now know to be so successful? And the answer was, yes, he would regret not having made the decision. And he said that then, not now. So he in fact was using a cool form of psychology. I was alluding to it in the beginning of this post. It’s to imagine what you will think when you’re super old. Imagine what decisions you’ve made and whether you would regret any decisions. And what you’d regret. Would there be any decisions you’re about to make that you would or would not regret? Why?

Thus, this was the catalyst for me to start writing some stuff.

I don’t think that I would regret not having written a novel by the time I’m thirty. But I would regret not having tried. So I will try. I will.

What I have heard from other writers is that there’s no model for success as a novelist. So you have to carve it out yourself. Which makes things extremely difficult.

But I don’t really care much about what other writers have to say.

I mean, history produced a lot of self-centered writers.

Not that history produced them itself. But you know what I mean.

Some people have read my blog before.

Some people have thrown up their arms in outrage.

They’ve said: “what is this blasphemy?”

I believe what I say is at least somewhat true.

And so, isn’t that all that really matters?

I don’t mean to endorse nihilism here. But that’s where I think there is too much skepticism.

If people think that nothing is worth it, then why not believe them?

Come up with an answer. I challenge you.